Friday, September 9, 2011
New Writing Spot
While I was waiting for my frozen chicken carcass and a week's worth of vegetable trimmings to cook down into homemade chicken stock (and waiting for a pound of dry garbanzo beans to absorb enough water to be soft enough for a new flavor of hummus), I found myself idly browsing blog posts to my ever increasing list of blogs that I follow. Although the word follow is a bit misleading - I randomly check these blogs when I'm bored or in need of inspiration, but I rarely seem to read every blog post. I'm a slow reader and so it always feels like time wasted.
But I have found myself drifting back to the blog run by Ree Drummond called The Pioneer Woman - it's fraught with tempting pictures of food and all manner of posts, and it's a wee bit addictive. Because they're so much to look at and so much to read. So many, many ways to waste time.
I'm not a fan of Drummond's style of cooking - too many shortcuts and too much random fat added for what seems to be the sake of adding fat - but I'm fascinated with her style of blogging and writing. It's unpretentious and very familiar, as if she's writing without a filter. It feels unedited (although I suspect there is a great deal of editing to accomplish this homey feel).
Anyway, the point is she has inspired me to finally take action and start another blog. Don't shake your head or assume I'm just following some fanciful flight of whimsy - I have been planning to start a new blog for months (actually wanted to start it last year but got swept way in prepping our house for sale), and poking around her blog reminded me that it's time to get serious about my other passion.
I went to college for fiction writing and ended up in business because I was too afraid to embrace fiction as a career. Everyone warned me about the likely failure I would discover as a writer. All the professors in my college classes crowed about proper writing technique and character development - and how I just wouldn't make it as a writer without reading all the masterful writers of ages past. And my own parents were utterly relieved when I announced plans to pursue business administration in conjunction with writing so that I wouldn't starve to death as a penniless and unsuccessful writer.
Guess what? I'm done being afraid of writing. I'm done fearing failure. I'm done waiting for inspiration to strike. I'm done listening to all the naysayers and statistic quotes. I'm done. DONE.
I'm good at writing fiction and I have a gift. Yes, that's ego. But without ego and confidence, there's nothing but fear of failure and timid pandering for approval. I know how to write good characters, I understand conflict, and I know how to develop a plot. I'm a perfectionist and I love editing and re-editing my own writing. I'm not afraid of constructive feedback - it only makes me stronger. So why have I been waiting so many years to write? Why did I waste all that money and time on college? Why did I waste all those years in business?
So I'm done with fear and today I start writing fiction once again. Thus, I have started a new blog called Warrior Writ to track my progress. It's not about writing - it is writing. I will post warm-up exercises that call doodles, chapters from novels, short stories, character development pieces, and other random bits of writing.
Read it if you like. Email me if you'd like to join as a fellow contributor. Or leave feedback and suggestions on bits that intrigue you. Or skip it all together.
Oddly, this new blog is also about love - in a very round about way. It's about love for who I am and what I have been given. It's about the love for creating characters that will inspire and provoke readers. It's about showing love for my bf who has worked tirelessly to help me realize this opportunity to write. And it's about exploring love through writing, through characters and situations, through conflict.
Goodbye fear. Hello fiction. I've missed you.